My entire life is dictated by ‘but what if there’s a spider under it’
I don’t post on here a lot anymore. Mainly because it makes me cringe but I’m so so sad tonight I feel like I’m turning inside out. I feel better when I write things down, a problem shared is a problem halved right? I’ve done everything I can to stay positive and happy the last 8 months (even my hair is growing back yey first time in 10 years) and then BAM the shittest day smacks you right between the eyes. I’ve tried very hard to remove the bad things in my life and do more of what makes me happy and all that hippy stuff. Which has worked really well, not only am I grateful for everything I have but I’ve realised I deserve the things I have which is the most important step in becoming content. But it’s been so long since I’ve been really sad that I’m not really sure what to do.